purging

so, just shy of a year, i finally deleted the messages on my phone that were from carlos. i had kept 2- the last two he left, because i have a tendancy to feel that things "weren't so bad" after beig apart from someone for awhile. i kept them because i knew it would remind me of some of the craziness that went on, and how that was such a difficult situation for me to deal with. but today, although strangely i was hesitant, i let them go. not really sure why i'm writing this, but it felt like something i should share.