hard

So I’m still having trouble with this whole ‘being in charge of my own life thing.’ Still having problems with feelings of panic and hyperventilating and feeling instantly claustrophobic… and that at any instant I could burst into tears. what the heck is going on? I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing with my life, don’t know what the meaning of it is, essentially. I miss the times when things were simpler, when being happy wasn’t so hard, and there wasn’t so much stuff to deal with.

And thank you to my friends who are trying to be there for me through this. I hope I come out the other end soon, I don’t know how much more of this I can go through.